[ it had been a hasty exit, the banishment of her summon, made all the more desperate given her own inability to escape right at this very second; she's fairly certain if she tried to stand, her knees would give out on her. she will likely not hear the end of it the next time she's to ever call upon mike, but better his irritation than his rage.
or worse, his disappointment.
dimly, she is aware of mephisto speaking. she has yet to look up from the sand, but his words eventually trickle in, like light through a fog, slowly making sense. she works to steady her breath, her voice. ]
Y..You said the damage was permanent.
[ her hand clenches at her feet, fisting around warm sand. it is difficult for her not to automatically blame herself, to think it is some sort of failing on her part. mike never does anything without uke, and vice versa; if one has gotten well enough to awaken, and so should the other. and why would the orbiters release only one of her summons?
and so she turns it inward, wondering if, perhaps, the flaw in her redesign isn't just lost memories, or a different timeline altogether; could it be that she also lost the strength and will to sustain her own summons? ]
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or worse, his disappointment.
dimly, she is aware of mephisto speaking. she has yet to look up from the sand, but his words eventually trickle in, like light through a fog, slowly making sense. she works to steady her breath, her voice. ]
Y..You said the damage was permanent.
[ her hand clenches at her feet, fisting around warm sand. it is difficult for her not to automatically blame herself, to think it is some sort of failing on her part. mike never does anything without uke, and vice versa; if one has gotten well enough to awaken, and so should the other. and why would the orbiters release only one of her summons?
and so she turns it inward, wondering if, perhaps, the flaw in her redesign isn't just lost memories, or a different timeline altogether; could it be that she also lost the strength and will to sustain her own summons? ]